Confession...

I have a confession to make. DH and I are swingers. No...not that kind of swingers. We've gotten into the habit of utilizing the swing to buy ourselves a few extra seconds, minutes, hours, whatever sleep we can get in the morning. LD does awesome sleeping through the night mostly, but he thinks that sometime between 6am-7am is time to start the day. My current pumping schedule is 9am, 1pm, 5pm, 9pm, 1am, 5am for 45 minutes so I'm not quite ready to get up at 6 or 7 in the morning. I could use just a little more sleep. So I drag the swing from the living room to the bedroom and plop my little munchkin in it. He usually chatters away for a few minutes and then drifts off to sleep. I'm sure I read somewhere that it's not ideal to let them sleep in the swing like that, but in my sleepy haze I just want a little more sleep. On the weekends when DH is home he's started to do the same thing since I told him how well it works. When I started doing it I kept telling myself I would only do it one more time...but now it's an almost daily thing. Ugh. I'm a bad Mommy. I had to tattle on myself because maybe it will help me break my dirty swinging habit. I'm just always.so.tired. Yeah I know, that's how life is with a baby, but baby sleeps through the night. It's me who doesn't get to. I think the dark circles under my eyes are permanent now. So I found a tiny bit of relief in the swing, but LD is growing so quickly that the swing will soon be retired and I'll be left searching for an alternate assistant.

LD met Santa today. He didn't seem to care much but I was glad we took him and we have a picture to prove it. DH keeps reminding me that he won't remember his first Christmas. I know that. But I think I am trying to make sure that the things I wish my parents would have done with/for me when I was young I do for LD and have documented proof I did them. Luckily the Santa line wasn't long this afternoon and LD was in a fantastic mood. He wasn't too keen on smiling while some stranger in a red suit with a white beard held him but we did get a tiny sort of smile out of him.